BACK!!!! Read your story. My sympathies. Wish you the best for the future.
On a lighter note, RT3 isn't dead yet, and some members (looking at Gumboots especially) have been steadily chinking at the armor of this obstinate game (for modding) over the last couple of years. Making new trains from scratch is possible now. There are lots of new maps around as well, I only have words of praise for Oilcan's maps, but there are lots of other good ones as well.